Tuesday, November 07, 2006

30...

I am older than 42% of Americans. I have already lost 10% of my muscle mass. I have said goodbye to my impetuous twenties and hello to the decade of maturity without cynicism, idealism without naiveity, and morality without judgment. If I'm lucky, my life is a third of the way over. If not, I could be dead tomorrow. Who knows? All I know is that a lot has changed in ten years. Ten years ago, I was about to be married to the wrong person for all the wrong reasons. He was my escape and I was a good way to make his "ex"girlfriend jealous. Well, four years later I discovered that I wasn't quite the Houdini I thought I was and the "ex"girlfriend is now my ex-husband's second wife of almost five years. Funny how life works, huh?

Don't misunderstand. I am no pessimist. I am still a hopeless Romantic. The idealism of my youth still lingers, but is tempered with a little experience, wisdom and the knowledge that Don Henley was right...the heart of the matter really is forgiveness. I know there's a lot more for me to learn. I am no where near the pinnacle of my education. I just pray that I will always be a willing student. Life is a classroom with momentous final exam at the end. Taking notes is recommended.

Here's to a pen and paper.